So today, June 9th, is a very special day to me. Yes, I turn 18 tomorrow and some people won’t believe I’m saying this, but that can wait…
Over a year ago my faith started to strengthen tremendously, and on this faith roller coaster that was only going up, I got the opportunity to go to Haiti on my first mission trip. That trip was not only fantastic, but also overwhelming and full with different emotions. That trip I realized that my God, was a beautiful artist. The sky was a blank canvas, but oh man he took his paint brushes and formed a breathtaking paining. But he also took his time and formed that beautiful smile on that lovely child’s face, he formed every wrinkle on the elders face, and the child/ adult with special needs… he formed that beautiful human also. He knows each and every one of us by name, and calls us his own. That is such a precious and heart felt thing to know that our creator loves us that much.
“But now, this is what the Lord says– he who created you, Jacob, he who formed you, Israel: ‘Do not fear, for I have redeemed you; I have summoned you by name: you are mine” Isaiah 43:1
“For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mothers womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.” Psalm 139:13-14
While thinking about all of that I thought, “ Wow. If that isn’t love then I’m not quite sure what is.”
Someone could love me so much, that he would form every little detail of my body, personality, talents, etc. and love me no matter what my sin be.
That reminds me of one of my favorite songs that says,
“Cause I may be weak, but your spirits strong in me
My flesh may fail, but my God you never will
I may be weak, but your spirits strong in me
My flesh may fail, but my God you never will”
We are not perfect, we will fail. But we have to sin and fail so we have the opportunity to step back and realize that we can’t make it in this crazy life we live in without the love and strength of Christ in our hearts. Having that exact comfort of love and strength in our hearts is a privilege.
That one week I was in Haiti, love was the language God spoke through, into me. It all started to make sense and I am so glad it did.
Sooo I am always talking about Haiti, some may think I want to always be there because it’s my favorite place or maybe because that is where my missions have been too. It is a beautiful place and also my favorite, but thats not the reason Haiti has a place in my heart…a year ago today I surrendered my life to Christ IN Haiti. This week last year I realized that my creator was an artist. I realized how much this world has to offer. I realized how love can break barriers and come through. I realized how important the little things are in life. That trip was the first time I had raised my hands to the heavens praising my Lord and savior while worshiping.
A year ago today I gave my heart away, a year ago today I made the best decision of my life.
There is just some kind of peace and calmness that comes once you rise from the water. There is a peace that comes when you go to sleep at night knowing that God is on your side and forever will be. He sent a perfect human down to earth to say “I am going to take all of your sins away, every bit of them, from the littlest lie to the biggest fight, I’m taking them. And you my friend, will be debt free.” Trading a coat of disgustingness and sin for a coat of righteousness that will cover all of you. I don’t know about you, but there is something about that thought that just brings me to tears. Our God, our father is so amazing.
Now, I know that when I was baptized that it wasn’t going to make my life any easier, BUT I do know that I will forever have someone watching over me, protecting me, and guiding me. God is guiding us with every step we take, but it just is a matter of if you listen to where he is telling you to go. He is right there hand in hand with you.
I was so so broken inside. Incredibly broken. So with that being noticed I turned right around and handed my life over. I cried to God and said “I can’t do this any longer on my own. I need your help.” I apologized for all the sin and selfishness that was in my heart and I let him know that I didn’t want to live the life I was living anymore. And the cool thing about all of that is once your sin is gone, its gone. God isn’t going to turn right around and bring it up again. He is going to heal the brokenhearted and guide us with his healing hand.
Last little thing before I close out. my favorite bible verse is Luke 19:10 and it says, “For the son of man came to seek and save the lost”. Friends, that is one of the truest and comforting verses in the Bible. God sent his perfect son, to look for and save the broken.
I am a witness to that bible verse.
I love everyone with my whole heart, but your Heavenly Father loves you more.
p.s. I said this in my last post but I’m gonna forever say this. Please email me with any prayer requests. I am always so happy to pray for you. ❤