What a ride its been…so far

So today, June 9th, is a very special day to me. Yes, I turn 18 tomorrow and some people won’t believe I’m saying this, but that can wait…

Over a year ago my faith started to strengthen tremendously, and on this faith roller coaster that was only going up, I got the opportunity to go to Haiti on my first mission trip. That trip was not only fantastic, but also overwhelming and full with different emotions. That trip I realized that my God, was a beautiful artist. The sky was a blank canvas, but oh man he took his paint brushes and formed a breathtaking paining. But he also took his time and formed that beautiful smile on that lovely child’s face, he formed every wrinkle on the elders face, and the child/ adult with special needs… he formed that beautiful human also. He knows each and every one of us by name, and calls us his own. That is such a precious and heart felt thing to know that our creator loves us that much.

“But now, this is what the Lord says– he who created you, Jacob, he who formed you, Israel: ‘Do not fear, for I have redeemed you; I have summoned you by name: you are mine”   Isaiah 43:1

“For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mothers womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.”  Psalm 139:13-14

 

While thinking about all of that I thought, “ Wow. If that isn’t love then I’m not quite sure what is.”
Someone could love me so much, that he would form every little detail of my body, personality, talents, etc. and love me no matter what my sin be.
That reminds me of one of my favorite songs that says,
“Cause I may be weak, but your spirits strong in me
My flesh may fail, but my God you never will
I may be weak, but your spirits strong in me
My flesh may fail, but my God you never will”

We are not perfect, we will fail. But we have to sin and fail so we have the opportunity to step back and realize that we can’t make it in this crazy life we live in without the love and strength of Christ in our hearts. Having that exact comfort of love and strength in our hearts is a privilege.
That one week I was in Haiti, love was the language God spoke through, into me. It all started to make sense and I am so glad it did.

Sooo I am always talking about Haiti, some may think I want to always be there because it’s my favorite place or maybe because that is where my missions have been too. It is a beautiful place and also my favorite, but thats not the reason Haiti has a place in my heart…a year ago today I surrendered my life to Christ IN Haiti. This week last year I realized that my creator was an artist. I realized how much this world has to offer. I realized how love can break barriers and come through. I realized how important the little things are in life. That trip was the first time I had raised my hands to the heavens praising my Lord and savior while worshiping.

A year ago today I gave my heart away, a year ago today I made the best decision of my life.

There is just some kind of peace and calmness that comes once you rise from the water. There is a peace that comes when you go to sleep at night knowing that God is on your side and forever will be. He sent a perfect human down to earth to say “I am going to take all of your sins away, every bit of them, from the littlest lie to the biggest fight, I’m taking them. And you my friend, will be debt free.” Trading a coat of disgustingness and sin for a coat of righteousness that will cover all of you. I don’t know about you, but there is something about that thought that just brings me to tears. Our God, our father is so amazing.

Now, I know that when I was baptized that it wasn’t going to make my life any easier, BUT I do know that I will forever have someone watching over me, protecting me, and guiding me. God is guiding us with every step we take, but it just is a matter of if you listen to where he is telling you to go. He is right there hand in hand with you.

I was so so broken inside. Incredibly broken. So with that being noticed I turned right around and handed my life over. I cried to God and said “I can’t do this any longer on my own. I need your help.” I apologized for all the sin and selfishness that was in my heart and I let him know that I didn’t want to live the life I was living anymore. And the cool thing about all of that is once your sin is gone, its gone. God isn’t going to turn right around and bring it up again. He is going to heal the brokenhearted and guide us with his healing hand.

Last little thing before I close out. my favorite bible verse is Luke 19:10 and it says, “For the son of man came to seek and save the lost”. Friends, that is one of the truest and comforting verses in the Bible. God sent his perfect son, to look for and save the broken.

I am a witness to that bible verse.

I love everyone with my whole heart, but your Heavenly Father loves you more.

xoxo, Kathryn

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p.s. I said this in my last post but I’m gonna forever say this. Please email me with any prayer requests. I am always so happy to pray for you. ❤

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I missed this

Hey everyone!! I just wanted to start off by saying I am very sorry for not writing at all recently. I was using my school computer and they took those up at the end of April so I had no way to write. I just got my new computer for college today so I will be writing A LOT. WOOHOO!!

Whatever you’re doing, wherever you’re reading this I hope you’re doing so well! But if life is a little tough right now for you, or just not going the way you planned, know these couple things:

  1. Jesus loves you more than words can describe. His love is so great for you, and this world. Whatever is going on I want you to look towards the heavens and just hand it all to God. If you’re like me, you try to take control of the situation…but thats not how that works. We have to trust God and know that he will take care of it for us.
  2. He doesn’t only love you, but he will fight for you. In Exodus 14:14 it says that we only need to be still. Let him have his hands on the wheel and allow him to press the gas, you just need to be still and enjoy the ride and trust that he will get you to where you’re going. Yes, it will be a bumpy, up, and down hill ride but that IS OK. He’s got it.

 

I apologize once again for not being able to write! I love y’all but not as much as JESUS loves you.

xoxo Kathryn

 

*If you want me to pray specifically for you or a situation please email me and let me know. I would be more than happy too.

Be still, be patient, BEHOLD

Hello! I hope everyone had a great easter celebrating our resurrecting King!

This blog will be short and sweet but it also has a lot of meaning and truth behind it that has not only helped me but now means so much to me. I hope you enjoy reading it just as much as I enjoy sharing it:)

I have one major goal in life, and that my friend is to make Jesus’ name known. In todays broken world and broken society we need someone to lean on. Our Mighty father wants us. He desperately wants us. I pray everyday that the whole world will hear my story and know that mercy can and will reach you wherever you are, but we have to be still and let God work in our lives… be patient and let him work. I don’t only promise his timing is perfect, but HE promises that his timing is perfect.

C.S. Lewis says, “ I am sure that God keeps no one waiting unless He sees that it is good for him to wait” and that couldn’t be more true. Like I said Gods timing his perfect and he knows you so well. He knows what your future holds.

“Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord.”

Psalm 27:14

We have a perfect father that wants us all to open our hearts to him, so he can help us. Wait on him. Have hope in him. God always allows us to feel the delicacy in human love so we’ll appreciate the strength of his love. God IS love.

“But I trust in your unfailing love; my heart rejoices in your salvation. I will sing the Lord’s praise, for he has been good to me.”

Psalm 13:5-6

Something greater is coming…That struggle you just came across, the boy/girl that just broke your heart, family struggles, a sick relative, maybe you just feel that your whole world is falling apart. During these times the one thing to realize is that we have an unfailing father and nothing compares to his love. His unfailing love is there and we need to remember that. We also need to remember that He loves you and he loves me. Salvation is in His blood. Your heart is not broken with the father, you have such a precious heart to him, and he cares for you. When your heart feels empty only one thing can fulfill and feed it, which is God. He created you with a longing in your heart for him. When you search for Christ and find him, then you will begin to see everything else.

Oh how great his love is, let your soul sing out to him!!

“Satisfy us in the morning with your unfailing love, that we may sing for joy and be glad all our days”

Psalm 90:14

*Everything I share with y’all, I promise I understand. My testimony explains and shows so much that I want the world to see and hear. I want every individual to know that Mercy will reach you wherever you are. If you turn to God and give him your heart he will save you. You have to give him access to your heart. Sooner or later I will share my story with y’all so you can see first hand how God works within you. I want everyone to know that God loves them.

Be still before the Lord, Be patient with him, and behold the King of Kings for he is so good.

A Lesson too clear

Hello everyone! I hope that you all had such a great spring break, and if you haven’t had spring break then I hope you have a great one! In the last post I mentioned how I will be in Haiti for spring break, and wow was it an eye and heart opening trip. Happy reading!:)

 

The trip 

Okay so we arrived Saturday and just hung out around the orphanage, playing with the kids and taking lots of pictures of course! Then on Sunday we went to a church in a little town called Mariani, which was GREAT and then later that afternoon we went back to that town to play with the kids in the community<3 Then on Monday and Tuesday we split up into 2 groups. My group went to a school so I got to be a little teacher for a couple days and it was such an awesome experience because I want to be a teacher… Elementary Ed preferably so to be able to stand in a different classroom setting made my heart so happy. But unfortunately that was the end of the trip doing actual work for me. Wednesday morning at 4, I woke up incredibly sick. I didn’t go back to sleep at all and just got worse. So Thursday morning they almost had to take me to the hospital but gratefully didn’t have to go to the hospital, just the doctor’s office. And they thought something just got in my system that my body didn’t like, plus they thought I was a little dehydrated. So then I had to beg my mom to tell them not to start an IV. So they didn’t buttt I’m great now!!! It was such an awesome trip!! I loved it so much! That sickness had nothing on me. But it’s amazing because God found away to show me what he needed to show me. I was being so hard headed and I wasn’t listening to him so through me being sick, he was clear as day. We have such a powerful God.

 

What God showed me

Before this trip Satan decided to throw two big things in my life and a good bit of head turner problems… through these I really had to try really hard to stay focused on God; the healer, the maker of heaven and earth. I constantly was told to pray. Pray pray pray and more prayer. “Turn to God” they said. From 2012 to now I have gotten plenty of signs that stuck out to me about prayer. But it wasn’t until almost a year ago on my first mission trip that I really started to realize what it meant to pray to God, talk to God, praise him, and read into his word. I prayed but I only prayed when I needed to pray…but the thing is, we don’t pray just to talk out loud, we pray to have a relationship with God. To feel his presence and listen to what he wants us to hear… God wants to have a relationship with us and I’m sorry to break it to you, but just reading your bible every now and then is not a relationship with him. From reading your bible and praying to God, they all bounce off of each other.

 

I don’t think it was an accident that I got sick. I believe that God needed to get my attention about how bad he wanted a relationship with me and oh goodness he did. I had so many little things that stuck out to me but the one thing on this trip that really made me realize what I needed and wanted to do was A MOVIE. NOW WHO WOULD HAVE THOUGHT A MOVIE WOULD DO THAT. The movie was called “War Room” and if you haven’t seen it I highly recommend watching it. But if you haven’t, basically an older woman was being a mentor to this married woman who was having major marriage problems. The older lady was throwing prayer at this woman constantly. Her war room was her prayer room. She cleaned out a closet, wrote down her prayers, and taped them on the wall of the closet. This older woman would pray with such boldness and it really did move me. We have such a mysterious, beautiful God and who would have thought a movie would have made me come to my senses.

 

Friends, prayer is a SPIRITUAL WEAPON. In Ephesians 6:10-20 it says “Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. Put on the full armor of God, so that you can take your stand against the devil’s schemes. For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand.  Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place, and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace. In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God. And pray in the Spirit on all occasions with all kinds of prayers and requests. With this in mind, be alert and always keep on praying for all the Lord’s people. Pray also for me, that whenever I speak, words may be given me so that I will fearlessly make known the mystery of the gospel, for which I am an ambassador in chains. Pray that I may declare it fearlessly, as I should.

 

 

We all know that life, as a Christian is not a playground all the time. But that’s ok. It is very often bent and twisted by Satan. Praying to God is keeping our souls close to God and away from Satan.

 

“Call to me and I will answer you and tell you great and unsearchable things you do not know”

-Jeremiah 33:3

Love People, Change the World

Some of you may or may not know but I leave in just 2 short days for Port-Au Prince, Haiti. This is my second time to travel to Haiti to share some love with the most Godly, dedicated people I have EVER met and I am so excited…

On my last trip to Haiti I went in completely blind. I knew that I loved traveling and loved to love people so what better way to get back into the church? Little did I know God was about to put people in my life and show me things that I thought my eyes would never see. I saw things with my own eyes like the town, the church we worked at, how high spirited the kids were, but also how much the Haitian people loved the Lord. It all amazed me beyond words. These beautiful people could careless about what they don’t have because they don’t know. They don’t know anything about what they don’t have. They all love the life they’re living. They love the people around them. And most of all they love the almighty King. Yes, they are people. They have struggles. But they still keep their eyes focused on the Most High. How amazing and emotional is it to see and hear all these things and realize how much we have but we still tend to lose our focus. Why?? Why are we blessed with so much but still tend to forget to thank God for everything. For waking us up and for blessing us with hot water, and electricity, and a roof over our head. The list goes on. They say once you go out of the country for mission work, especially to such a poor country, don’t come back feeling selfish. Sometimes as humans we can’t help but to do exactly that. Instead of us coming back feeling selfish for what we do have we need to go back with something even greater. God doesn’t send us on these missions to make us feel bad, no. He sends us out to spread his word and love that we bring people closer to him but at the same time put us on a straight path to run to him. On that trip I realized so much and cried to God about how much I really did need him, how much I wanted to be his forever, I wanted to die happy and I wanted to commit myself fully to him. I was baptized in the Haitian waters and it’s been nothing but joy since then. YES, I’ve had a few struggles to face since then but I faced them stronger and better than I would have ever been able to do without him by my side. Ever since I came back from my first trip it’s been all gas and no breaks running full on to the maker of everything and I could never be happier.

Some say when you go to Haiti two things will happen. 1) You will never be the same, and 2) you can’t help but go back. Those are the realest things I have ever heard. I will be on my way back to Haiti in just a couple days. IT HASN’T EVEN BEEN A YEAR SINCE I LAST WENT. No words describe how happy I am to be back in my favorite place. My love for people and the world grew tremendously since the last trip and now I get to go do what I love again, all for God.

 

My Prayer:

My prayer is that God takes all of the team I am traveling with and uses us all in the same way or maybe even in different ways. I pray that in everything we do in Haiti that we look through a lens that shows us and pushes us a little more than we thought could ever happen, to fall even more in love with Jesus Christ and everything he does for us. I pray that God heals relationships through this trip; I pray that relationships build through this trip, but God most of all I pray that our relationship with you becomes higher and deeper than we ever thought. I also pray that the ears of the Haitian people are open to hear and they’re eyes are open to see us work for you, Lord. God, no language is needed for people to see you working through us and a smile is the same in all languages. We love you so much father and we are so thankful for your presence with us daily, and as we go do work all for you.

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Memories in the making

Senior year is almost over, 85 days until graduation, and the whole year its nothing but “lasts”. Last pep rally, last high school game, last homecoming/prom, and eventually the last time we walk through the hallways as a high school student. Its crazy your whole life you look forward to this very moment and now its here. You’ve done your time as a high schooler so what’s next? One door has closed and another is about to open. Whether it be college, the military, or work you have a list of opportunities awaiting you. Don’t take those for granted. Why wait for what you want to happen when you have a step right in front of you waiting to be taken. Baby steps, my love… If you are meant to do what you’ve been dreaming of then God will make it happen one way or another. He sees your plan and knows what is best for you way before you do.

“In their hearts humans plan their course, but the LORD establishes their steps.”

Proverbs 16:9

To my high school best friends:

We made it, guys. Walking through the hallways as a 9th grader we dreamt of this moment. We were freshman and now we are seniors. I thank God everyday for allowing me to take on the crazy high school world with yall. Thank you for the memories, adventures, and random stnp’s. Through every trial we each have faced I’m so thankful we took them head on together. Every one of you has a special place in my heart (+ Hallie the baby). Knowing we wont have each other to sit with before school in the morning is really upsetting, but I know that the Lord has a grand plan for each of you and it makes my heart smile knowing that. We have a few months left so lets make the most of them, yeah??

“A friend loves at all times, and a brother is born for a time of adversity.”

Proverbs 17:17

To the underclassmen:

Whether it’s the next graduating class or walking through the hallways as a freshman, your time is coming. At one point it will be a first but eventually it will be a last. My advice is to not take one second for granted. I always thought that statement was overused but now that I’m here I understand. If you’re an athlete, play every game like it’s your last. Dancer? Dance your heart out. Singer? Sing your heart out. Get involved and meet new friends. But through it all never take your eyes off of the one who gave you the opportunity to be where you are now.

“But he said, “My grace is sufficient in you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefor I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. “

2 Corinthians 12:9

To my new college friends:

Who knew joining an app and a group message would lead me to meet my college best friends. Texting a couple guys and a group of girls EVERY DAY plus a few Skype calls and I claim them already. Cannot wait for college adventures with you all. I’ll always be a phone call away and a short walk across campus. 😉

“As iron sharpens iron, so one man sharpens another man”

Proverbs 27:17

P.S. Don’t ever let your smile fade… you’re beautiful and don’t let someone tell you different. You mean something to this world so go make a difference and live this grand life you were given.

 And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.

Romans 8:28

To all the girls out there

A few little notes for all my girls

  • You are beautiful.

I mean think about it, to call ourselves ugly or fat is doubting what God made beautiful. That always takes my breath away knowing that he made all of us perfect in HIS image. We are uniquely made. Ladies, don’t let anyone ever tell you differently than what the Lord our God tells us. The world we live in today for some reason is so good at putting people down and putting in all of our brains that we should look a certain way or we wont be accepted… NO MA’AM. That is not what we need to be focused on.. The worldly view of perfect is not what we need to be trying to live up too. We should be trying and focusing on living up to Gods expectations. But his expectations of us is for us to love him fully. HE MADE YOU IN HIS IMAGE. The world didn’t make you, so do not get so caught up in what the world expects of you that you catch yourself putting yourself down.. Why doubt how God made us? You are beautiful, darling.
“You are altogether beautiful, my darling, there is no flaw in you”
Song of Songs 4:7
We can have confidence in knowing how beautiful we are without being self-centered.

  • You are strong

So the boy you thought you loved broke your heart, but that’s ok because it gets better. You have a relative that left you, but that’s ok because it gets better. One of your best friends stabbed you in the back, but you know what, that’s ok because it gets better. And now you’re asking yourself why it’s going to get better. It gets better because you are strong. You are a strong human so don’t let the devil take over and convince you that you’re not. Trust me, when I say I understand every one of those topics, I DO. You are strong and compassionate and DO NOT ever let anyone ever talk down to you. You can stand up for yourself without being rude or disrespectful. I do it all the time nowadays, if that person leaves you because of how strong you are trying to be for yourself then they were never there to begin with. No, I don’t know what you’re going through but I can promise you a couple things.

  1. You will get through this.
  2. Once you get through this, God will be waiting at the end of this struggle with something even greater than you will ever imagine.

I know those sound cliche, but why would everyone over use those 2 points if they weren’t true?

“Jesus replied, ‘you do not realize now what I am doing, but later you will understand’”
John 13:7

  • You are loved

You loved a boy then he left. Yeah then there goes your friends. Maybe even a relative left you.. And then automatically you start thinking… ” well why would they leave me if they once said they loved me”, or ” they said they would never leave so why did they leave?” You started overthinking, and now your doubting your self worth.. These people loved you and then left. So what!! You have an Almighty God that says that he will never leave you and he will forever love you. Really think back on your life and see was there ever a time where God wasn’t there? Was there ever a time where he wasn’t there and never came back? Nope. I didn’t think so.

 

Point being: Ladies, you will forever be important and forever under the hand of God. You are beautiful. You are strong. You are loved.

BLOG YEAH!!

No words describe 2 things:

  1. HOW EXCITED I AM ABOUT THIS BLOG.
  2. My love for the King Almighty

WHY A BLOG?

If you’re wondering why I started this blog, I have a few reasons, but let me start by telling you this, I am a major people person, I love people, so I always feel the need to want the best for everyone and anyone. I’m always wanting to share how awesome our God is..SO what better way to do that than write about it!! Am I right or am I right?!?! I also am just now getting used to wanting the best for myself. I always get so caught up in what is going on that I stress myself out; I feel like writing this blog will help add on to what I really need to be focusing on which is not social media, or whats going on at school, BUT how great the Lord our God is.

Psalms 77:13-14 says, ‘Your ways, God, are holy. What god is as great as our God? You are the God who performs miracles; you display your power among the peoples.”

ME

I live in Mississippi and have grown up here all my life. I’m a senior in High School and have also played volleyball since middle school. I grew up going to church, but not every Sunday, it WAS an every now and then, “if we get up in time” thing. I never really had a reason or wanted to get involved with the church until the beginning of my junior year of high school. One sunday my best friend and her mom picked me up and that day we were going to go to youth group before big church. So we did, and immediately the smiles from everyone around me stood out. Everyone was so happy to be there and the constant thought of why everyone was so happy was in my head. A few sundays in and it became an every sunday routine for me to go. From that point on there wasn’t a day I didn’t feel welcome. The church became my second home and little did I know I would be falling completely in love with Jesus throughout the next few months. A few ups and a lot of downs came throughout that year and I wasn’t about to let the devil get to me and take me right back to where I was before. So it was a test, a hard test to make sure I wasn’t about to give up. Summer going into my senior year came and man was I loving life. I was leaving for Haiti to serve the highest of them all soon and nothing described how excited I was. That week was a LIFE-CHANGING week. No exaggeration there. I ended up praying and praying and then being baptized in now my absolute favorite place on this planet. Ever since then its been all gas no breaks, running full speed to my God.

Why “courageous warrior”?

I recently read this quote by C.S. Lewis that says, “My prayer is that when I die, all of hell rejoices that I am out of the fight.” and I couldn’t agree more. I am already confident in myself and extremely strong willed, and now EXTREMELY strong and firm in my faith. And that my friends means everything to me.

The definition of a warrior is a brave fighter BUT….a courageous fighter…. a warrior not deterred by danger or pain; brave. So in my opinion a courageous warrior means to be so strong in your faith that once you do go to live with your heavenly father, thats when hell will throw a party because one of the strongest warriors is out of the battle.

Once again I could not be more excited about this new opportunity to share my love for my mighty father.

-Kathryn